I'm Back!

So happy to finally tell you that I am back to regularly blogging after almost a month of a much needed personal break. I didn't really want to take the break but I looked at my life and realized that because of the situations in my life I wouldn't be one pleasant blog to read. Plus! I worked so hard figuring out how to make the pretty new layout you are now experiencing!

The great thing is I was able to take time preparing and "nesting" for spring! I'm less than 4 months away from bringing a sweet little Girl into this world! That's right I said GIRL! So happy and excited to be having her in my life!

I made some pretty difficult decisions lately... one of those being moving from our big apartment back to a room at my moms by myself. That was a hard one to swallow but I really had to look at what was best for my little one at the moment. She could have a nice big room all to herself at the old apartment and we could struggle with bills forever or I step back look at my life and give up some of my stuff in order to save money for a better life. I also wanted to make sure she has a loving, peaceful life to begin in.

My relationship with Justin has struggled... man I hate typing that. No one wants to admit that. I guess we love too passionately. We fight with passion we don't just give up and that's what scares me. I don't want our little girl to sit through that and listen to it. We need to be peaceful for her. So were taking some time apart in order to get back to our roots and relearn what we forgot about in our relationship. I can already tell it's helping but I'm not 100% sure about where this will lead our little family in the future.

I guess I am not the average girl I thought I was going to be which surprises me. I guess you don't really grasp the relationships you have until someone (else) you  love enters the picture.... in this case my little girl. I can't think of anything but her now. My ridiculous amount of stuff I moved, my internet life, my relationship with Justin, my big apartment, my business, my blog, everything means nothing compared to her. It's really hard to explain. I just want to set up an environment with her where I know there will be lots of love, less stress, and most importantly bonding time with mommy!

I truly debated on whether to mention the move on my blog or not. I could always lie and act like everything is still perfect but than I realized my life really isn't that big of a deal that I would need to lie. I need to stay true even if it hurts, I need to look back, read this, and remember.

I'm excited to be stress free and happy again after a month of heartbreak. I'm super excited for spring,  my growing belly, summer, and taking this time for myself to enjoy life. I want to get back into taking beautiful pictures of my life and sharing them with you. I want to get back to creating beautiful unique products for my shop. I want to get back to being creative because it's what I live to do. The Two most important things in my life right now are having a loved little one and a happy  soul. That's it.