I don't really want to admit it but I haven't felt so great in my skin lately. I catch myself seeing only ugly when I look in the mirror and I pick apart myself when anyone takes a photo of me. I don't really know where this came from because I have such a good boyfriend and family who tells me just about every day that I am beautiful.
Anyway... at least I realize that I have a problem. I have never liked it when someone said I'm ugly... I'm fat... blah blah blah. I have always been proud... and every now and again accepted my flaws.
The wrinkle I am getting on my forehead drives me crazy... my naturally curly hair is almost untameable and my nose feels out of place. I have a gap between my front teeth that won't go away after 5 years of braces and acne always seems to be a problem. Double chin, darks circles.... ok now I need to stop.
Basically I wanted to post this because I hate seeing myself like this and I need to rise above it. I do love my hazel eyes, perfect eyebrows, and long lashes. My legs look good in about any outfit. I do like it when my hairs curls just right once in a blue moon. So you win some you lose some... and nobody's perfect.
To be absolutely honest... I think it all stems from being made fun of or just a joke about those features from when I was younger. Those kind of things seem to stick with you forever.
You are beautiful!! I know the feeling too and I usually get that way after seeing some gorgeous woman on our beach and then I feel super self conscious for weeks. I have naturally curly hair too and I used to hate it with a passion and when I voiced this to others (mostly of whom had pin straight hair that I wAnted) they would call me crazy and tell me I was the lucky one because so many women would kill to have hair that did something other than lay flat. So I started looking at it differently and honestly, curly hair is beautiful! It means your hair has life!! And for the reasons behind your self consciousness, I totally agree that it can stem from things others say in the past. I had a similar experience with being made fun of because I've always been short. But you learn to accept it and find all the positives in what others find flaws. Remember, they aren't perfect either :)
ReplyDeleteI think you took the words right out of my mouth on the hair subject... it really is a love hate relationship with it. It usually ends up winning and I give up and it's in a pony tail. Thanks for making me not feel alone. I didn't want to post this but I was sick of beating my self up.
DeleteI think we all feel this way from time to time, but you're gorgeous so stop it! =P
ReplyDeleteI'm glad I am not alone... I guess I threw it out there so that it would make me see how stupid it is to think like that. Thanks!
Deleteyou're perfect just the way you are and don't you forget it! we all carry our own unique beauty on the inside and the outside. i think we woman are always comparing ourselves to what we have been "taught" to think is beautiful. i know i go through the same thing despite my mister telling me otherwise on a daily basis. love yourself just the way you are because you are a beautiful child of the universe and there is only one you and like i said, you are perfect just as you are.
ReplyDeletePerfect words! Thanks for lifting me up this morning. Your so right!
DeleteNot only are you the most creative person I know but the most beautiful. You can do things that no one else can. I look up to you in so many different ways. Beautiful is unique to every eye. You just have to remember it yourself.
ReplyDeleteI love you! :)
DeleteListen to these lovely ladies, they know what they're talking about! You really are a beautiful person, inside and out. :D
ReplyDeleteI personally blame the media for shoving what they deem as "beautiful" in our faces. Making women hate themselves and men have too high expectations. But thankfully nothing we see in the magazines or on tv is real, it's all fixed up. So trying to reach those expectations would just be in vain.
We are who we are and must find beauty in simply that fact.
P.S. I'm going to tell you a little secret. Guys feel this way almost as much as women do.
Stefan... you right media plays a big role! Thanks for letting me know that little secret. I know I am not the only one who can feel this way sometimes I just wish it didn't happen.
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