I wanted to take the time to talk about life for a bit. I have just got so much on my mind it really is hard to focus on what is most important. The biggest challenge for me is realizing that my studio is going to be in bye bye mode soon. It really sucks. I'm thinking of every possible way to keep it without it being harmful to a baby but it's hard to know what is best.
I been pulling out supplies thinking I will use them up real quick rather than get rid of them and that's causing more chaos in my head. The other thing is my sleeping patterns. I seem to be tired all the time... it's really hard trying to get up and get moving without something or someone motivating me. I am trying so hard to do whatever I can to make myself have more energy.
I did try something new though... this green smoothie from ABM. It has two cups of spinach in it which I imagine will make me feel like popeye. It was my first time making a real healthy smoothie and trying one. I really like it! Thank god because its really hard for me to enjoy veggies like I should.
Also financial issues are such a burden right now. I'm pinching my pennies so tightly and I am just nervous to see what comes of all this new baby stuff. We got a crib the other day, well my dad got it for me. We have it put together and all I can think is... I can't believe this is happening. Also having it put together makes me think where are we putting it?
Every single night I have nightmares.... like crazy ones I have never had before. Last night I dreamed of chopping these evil guys heads off with a butcher knife. In my dream I was scared to do it but I thought if I don't kill them they will kill me. Craziness!
I just want to make it... and I know deep down inside I will but not knowing anything about what's about to happen is making it hard to understand what I should be doing. I feel like I need to be doing so much.
So I just felt the need to vent it always seems a lot easier to do than dwelling on it in my head.
Hope you all had a good weekend!